This lil itty bitty heart of mine…

She’s fragile.

She doesn’t want to let anyone in. Call me jaded… I guess I’ve always fell back on that, because it puts the cement in my wall.  It keeps my bricks together.

I have someone I enter-twine with.. and I have these stupid moments where I get mixed up.. and think too much.

I am so beside that feeling now.

My Rajah is hurting.. and I have to go say goodbye.

No more drool on my skin, no more lil kisses and mild meows.. no more memories.

how do you say goodbye to a pet?  I mean she was a massive part of my life.  She has seen the good, the bad.. loved every boyfriend, and loved them all the same.. never knowing they broke my heart.  She’s been my Precious since the day I picked her up at Humane Society.  She was labeled “Pouncer” and we renamed her b/c she totally wasn’t a Pouncer.

She is Rajah.

The most majestic, lovely, kitten.  I remember her the day I got her.  I’m going to get the pic and post as soon as my Mom gets it for me.  I’ve had boyfriends that have hated cats.. and loved her.

There’s a reason.

Listen to Norah Jones “The Long Day is Over” and tell me you can’t feel it.

She would wake up next to me when I was in high school and shift.. walk over my boobs, I would get so mad.

She would sit in the kitchen and I would just whisper “Precious” and she would run to my bedroom to hit the sack.

She would lay on the kitchen floor with me and my friends when we were up late to eat snacks.

She would curl into your body in bed, like she was one with you.

She would put her head down and nuzzle you – didn’t matter who you were.

I am just swollen with ache.. and somehow the tears keep coming.

I knew the day would come, and I don’t want her to suffer.. hence my horrid decision. I’m just gunna go see my Raj, spend all the time I can before she goes, and give her a million kisses.

xoRajxo