I met my match.
I made the same mistake over and over again and it finally caught up with me.
This mistake has changed my life so much.. it will haunt me for years to come.
I’m just wondering when I get to stop paying for it.
I didn’t hurt anyone, I only hurt myself. In the scheme of things, yes, it affected numerous lives around me.. but I am the one who has to suffer every true piece.
As much as I’m convinced otherwise it’s affected my love life even to today.. 8 months later. I can’t even believe it’s creeping towards the year mark.
I can see it in his eyes.. I’m helpless and he can’t save me. He wants to believe I’ll hop right out of this slump but the end is not visible to me.
I’ve come to terms with failure, defeat, helplessness, being at one’s mercy…
We have a lot going on, we have so much together.. to lose someone over this mistake twice… every part of my life has suffered except for love.
I don’t pray but I’m putting a lot of faith in someone to believe that something like this doesn’t define me……
No one got hurt but me, thank goodness..
First and last DUI.
